Episode 21: Ms. Popularity

First and foremost I would like to shoutout all the...

2011 Graduates.

Congratulations. Greatness never takes a break, so you shouldn't either.

This time of year always makes me remember my high school days. It wasn't that long ago but jeeze I really miss high school. As most of you may know, despite how amazingly AMAZING I look now, I wasn't the coolest cat in high school. Actually, I was extremely awkward. I was tall, went to all of my classes, flat chested (like an ironing board) and had a BIG BUTT (some things never change). I am also convinced I started the whole "I'm-too-cool-for-my-clothes-to-match" trend. My motto was...
"Can't leave the door until i have 4 colors or more."
I may not have gotten 50 balloons on my birthday, but I'm glad to say the friends I had back then, I still have. And there are some other people who I wasn't so cool with back then who I'm cool with now (Thank you facebook). Well what does it even mean to be popular? Let's turn to Dictionary.com shall we?


Popular (adjective)

1.

regarded with favor, approval, or affection by people ingeneral:

Looking back, I always tell people I wasn't popular in high school, because I realize the "popular" people were the ones with the most haters. But then I realized everyone KNEW of me...

1. Because I was the tallest black girl in the school.
2. My best friend was just as tall as me so we were like twin towers.
3. I sang a solo in chorus once. ♫"Far to distant lands theeee nightingale *INHALE*... now flyeth"♫

The secret to being popular is not trying to be popular. You don't have to be at every party (or invited to any "/), you don't have to wear Gucci, Coogi, Louie, and you don't have to change who you are.

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Songs that were hot while I was in high school: 

• Pop, Lock and Drop it- Huey 
• Wipe Me Down- Lil Boosie
• Pretty Ricky- Grind With (On) Me 
• Did anyone else notice the "Grind With Me" clean version makes absolutely NO sense?

I like to call it the age of the one hit wonders. Smh.

Episode 20: My Sexual Partners

I'm going to talk about something that really

Grinds my Gears

Recently I met this guy. He was cool to talk to but we were in the getting-to-know each other stage; not for a serious relationship, but just to get to know each other. So we started off asking the generic questions; where are you from, favorite foods, etc. That's when it happened. This question comes in many forms such as

• How many bodies you got? (I haven't killed anyone)
• Are you sexually ACTIVE? 
• Have many people seen your room? (No, I have a small family)
• How many guys have you messed with? (I don't mess with people, its not nice)
• What type of guys so you mostly go for?

Basically asking, 

"How many SEXUAL partners do you have."

Why are you worried about MY sexual partners if we aren't even remotely thinking about having sex? The reason I don't like answering that question is because in my past, I've put the guys who ask me this question into 3 categories:

1. The You're a Ho Guy: Other wise known as the insecure guy. These guys ask you this question because they assume females have nothing better to do but rate the guys in their sexual history. These guys are usually insecure and don't take the time really get to know a girl because they, themselves don't want to get hurt, so they end up hurting females. These would be the guys who have little sly, nonchalant, usually negative sexual comments. 
• "You would let him hit right? Surprising."

         It doesn't matter if you tell these guy you only had 1 partner or you had 21, they will still react the    same way.

1. The Where Are You Guy: This is the guy who seems to be controlling in a lot of ways. He asks how many partners, how many were boyfriends, how long ago, any one night stands. etc. This guy may ask other questions like; what took you so long, where were/are you, etc. This guy is the most harmful because he would probably do and say the most harmful things. This guy usually comes equip with a short-tailed temper. This guy usually doesn't care how many partners you HAD, but they do care how about how many you will HAVE. They may stick around after things are over to check out your next guy and tell you how whack he is. 

• The Going Going Gone Guy: This is a very broad category. This includes the guys you meet at the club, on the street, basically no guy that was supposed to be taken seriously (Bozo the CLOWN). He asks this question because this is the only thing he is worried about getting, Beware ladies, once you give up the good, this guy is know to flee. They usually show strong feelings in a short period of time; you met them 2 weeks ago but they keep dropping the L-bomb. This is a part of their game though; to get YOU sprung quick so you can give it up. They ask how many partners you had to see if you're easy or not. I'm not saying a girl with 21 partners is easier than a girl with 4 partners but when a "Going Going Gone" guy hears 21, his probability increases in his head. 

I'm not saying EVERY guy I met fell into one or more of these categories, but from my experiences, this is how I've been forced to categorize the guys who ask me this question. There may be a guy who asks me how many partners I had and he may be the perfect guy for me but that's a risk I'm not willing to take.

This is not however, an excuse for a female to hide this information from their perspective partner. I am not telling females to put every guy they meet into one of these categories. I am just sharing my experiences. I do think a female should tell a guy something in the area of how many partners they had

• I do think that sex should be saved until marriage
• I have a past that I'm not proud of.
• I was young and naive

Something along these lines. Don't let too much time go by before revealing this information, this goes for virgins and those who are celibate too. Don't be afraid tell a guys "If you were looking for a good time, I'm not the one. I'm passed/not at that stage in my life." If they walk away, they weren't worth your time. Also, that Going Going Gone guy might see this as a challenge so make sure you follow through with what you say.

Dear Men out there that treat females as equals and not trophy's,
     Thank you for understanding that if you had a past, there's a chance that she had a past. .

Sincerly,
CDotScandal

P.S. Remember, 

your past may always follow you, but don't let it lead you

Episode 19: Dreams/ Summertime

I didn't post yesterday in hopes of making the week go by faster. Did it work?

Oh SNAP...It's TUESDAY.

First and Foremost:
I would like to wish a very special person a HAPPY BIRTHDAY. Now I understand no birthday over 30 is THAT happy but...

Happy Birthday Mommy

My mother is like my best friend. I'm not saying she's more like a friend than a mother (because that is definitely not the case) I'm just saying she does her best with what shes given and I hope one day to be as BLESSED as she is.


And for all those who didn't know, today is the first day of summer. Say "Hello SUMMER!"

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It Was All A Dream...

Do you dream? When I talk about dreaming, I don't mean the Martin Luther King Jr "I have a dream" kind of a dream. I mean going to sleep at night and letting your mind wander. Of course dreams have to do with the amount of hours you have to sleep and how deep into sleep you fall into but lately I've been having the craziest dreams. 
I mean like trying to out run a ninja on a bike with my sidekick a Gorilla kind of crazy. I remember I even had a dream about marrying a basketball player (ok that one wasn't so bad). My friend told me everyone dreams but no everyone remembers them. I used to remember my dreams relatively frequently but now its getting outrageous. I remember my dreams EVERY night, I even dream if I take a nap during the day. And dreams feel so real, like my life is actually in danger.
I don't know if the heat is getting to me but I need to start having more basketball marriage dreams.

• Do you remember your dreams? How often?

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Beauty Alert:

I did over my nails...FINALLY. I used pink punk by Rimmel and Gold by Forever 21's love and beauty. I subliminally stole the idea from Jessie (again) but its really cute.







Sorry but I gotta RUN...

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Episode 18: Happy Fathers Day

I'm posting early because...

I'm going to church

So Blessed Sunday and Feliz el dia de papas ^_^

This post is going to be REAL light.

Enjoy the little things. Not everything comes with fireworks and applause. Be the best you can be. The best way to impress someone is by giving it your all even when no one is looking.

Happy Fathers Day to all the Fathers out there.
To the Fathers who are taking care of their kids emotionally, financially, physically and spiritually, keep up the good work.
To the Fathers who have not yet stepped up to the plate, its not too late.

Special Happy Fathers Day to my father

Big-Ups. BULLET. lol

So as always...SPREAD THE LOVE

Not today but everyday

Episode 17: Flashback-2001

Happy Saturday to all. Flashback Saturday that is.
I hope you all take the chance to relax and take a load off.

Flashback: 2001

Where were you in 2001? I was taking my first steps out of childhood and into junior high school (JHS 231 to be specific). The road wasn't as smooth as I had wished. I went to a school farther than the one ALL of my friends were going to and my mom was worrying more about my newborn little sister than about what I was wearing and how my hair was combed. I still loved every moment of the 6th  grade though. I reconnected with a old family-like friend, had a few crushes (boys still had cooties though), and experimented with my style. One moment it was jeans, Jordans and a hoody (which was against dress code) the next moment it was button up shirts and skirts. 
I was never the popular girl (probably because I had no hair) but I was never a complete loser either. My 6th graded experience shaped me into the person I am today. Being teased about my hair meant

1. I either had to get a weave to make my hair long and silky
2. I had to keep my hair looking tidy and neat
3. or not give a crap what people think about my hair. Whether its long, short, straight, afro, black, blonde, dreaded or braided. 

I think its pretty clear I chose 3. I'm not saying my hair isn't tidy and neat, or that l'll never wear a weave that's long and silky (because I probably will by next week), but I can't let other people's opinion affect how I feel about myself.
I was also teased about being the tallest in the class (I mean taller than the boys too), so I made it a priority to make my height work for me. How did I do?

I always hated my awkward stages but now I've learned to love the things people sometimes make fun of. 
Except when my mom had the NERVE to buy me fake adidas from KMart and had me thinking I was jankin (-_-). She is still not forgiven for that (>_<). Oh boy (RMDE).

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Keeping the weekends light...
So as always...

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Episode 16: Lies Men/Women Tell

Thank GOD its Friday...and you know what that means...

It's SEXY  FRIDAY

Sex is like grapes. 

If you rush, it'll be over before you had a chance to begin.

So take your time. Prepare for each juicy grape, 

Savor the flavors. ...

or SMASH them all and pray they don't have seeds.

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Reminder:
Episode 2 of the CDotScandal Webseries is on my YOUTUBE CHANNEL now.

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8 Lies Men Tell

I'm not one of those 'men bad, female power' type of females, I would've called this segment Truths Men Tell, but there wasn't enough truths to write.

1. I wasn't even looking at that girl. FALSE!
• If I saw her I know you saw her
• How did I catch you looking at her? I have eyes in the back of my head.
• This is true if: You were probably doing more than just looking.
2. I could make your bed rock. FALSE!
• You have not proven yourself worthy enough to be in my bed.
• You couldn't make a pebble ROCK.
• This is true if: He was helping me move my bed.
3. I erased every other female out of my phone. FALSE!
• We just met 2 weeks ago which means you never had any girls in your phone to begin with
• What about your sister, and your mom, and Julie from 3rd grade?
• This is true if: He has a little black book somewhere.
4. I never came that quick before. FALSE!
• You're just lying to me and yourself.
• It's not the first time this has happened.
• This is true if: He's a virgin.
5. I don't have any condoms. FALSE!
• You are too damn lazy too look, since you haven't used them in a while.
• You want to get me pregnant by "forgetting" to use the Pull Out Method
• This is true if: You don't plan on having sex either.
6. I don't go down on females. FALSE!
• You don't talk about going down on females. Everyone dines on southern cuisine. 
• You want to get me mad to have angry sex?
• This is true if: Every relationship you had, FAILED.
7. I'm at my friends house. FALSE!
• You are either at the club or at some other girls house.
• Why do I hear Trey Songz in the background?
• This is true if: He's having an affair with homeboy
8. I don't have a girlfriend. FALSE!
• Yes you do.
• and YES you do.
• This is true if; He's a PIMP, Player, Ho or has a lot of kids.

So to be fair, I think i'll let the guys in (PAUSE) on...

8 Lies Women Tell

Get your notepad out.

1. You're the best I ever had. FALSE!
• If you were the best, I wouldn't tell you that  you were the best.
• A female might say this if she thinks you're crazy.
• This is true if: You're the only one shes ever had.
2. I'm not having sex right now. FALSE!
• I'm not having sex WITH YOU right now. 
• I don't want you to talk to me anymore.
• This is true if: I've never had sex
3. I don't go down on guys. FALSE!
• In order to keep the image of a lady, we don't TALK about going down.
• We've been practicing since we could eat Popsicles. 
• This is true if: I've never had a Popsicle.
4. I wasn't talking to any other guys before I met you. FALSE!
• I wasn't talking to any guys that you will ever find out about.
• Chances are I kept talking to them after I met you.
• This is true if: Well its never true but I really want to keep you.
5. I came like 10 times. FALSE!
• Poor guy doesn't even know what a real orgasm looks like.
• I should be a actress.
• This is true if: I used a vibrator.
6. I don't want a man. FALSE!
• I may not want one but I need one.
• We were designed to need men for various reasons. (Money, sex, money, children, money)
• This is true if: You're a lesbian. But even lesbians need men if they want babies.
7. I'm not trying to look good for a man. FALSE!
• We wear make-up
• We buy tight clothes
• We make sure every nook and cranny is clean, you know JUST IN CASE.
• This is true of: I don't have to try to look good.
8. I have a boyfriend. FALSE!
• I wish I had a boyfriend.
• I told you that right after you asked for my number.
• This is true if: I'm walking with him.

And of course...

Lies We All Tell:

1. My phone was off. FALSE!
2. I'm on my way. FALSE!

People, stop lying out there. 

Would the world be that bad if we were honest?

Yeah probably


*This post was meant to entertain NOT to be used as a questioning tool for those of you in a relationship.*
Thank you

So... SPREAD THE LOVE

Episode 15: AntiSocial Networking/ Webseries

It's Thursday
Do you believe in love at first sight...

or should I walk by again?

URGENT:

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If You Asked Me...

If you asked me what I think about cell phones, like every other person raised during the technology era, I would say I LOVE them. I could play angry birds in church (I'm praying that the birds will become happy), I could search for taco bell on Google maps (VOLCANO TACO NOM NOM) or run my own bakery (well virtual bakery for now). But everything in moderation. I mean angry birds in church may be pushing it but 

• Texting while pushing a stroller...while crossing the street...the street is Queens blvd...during RUSH HOUR. 
• Or texting while driving...doing 90mph...past a cop...on the Jackie Robinson...in the RAIN. 

Come on, whose "lol" is worth your life...

or more importantly, MINE?

I admit I feel like a failure if I arrive and school, find a great parking spot (right on Melbourne...or Reeves) and realize I left my phone at home. But It's gone way to far.
I especially hate going to a party and seeing everyone on their phone. 

• If the party is so jankin, why are you on twitter/facebook? 

I know if I'm at a party, my phone is inactive between the hours of 10pm and 4am. I'm worrying about who's buying my next drink, not how many of my facebook friends will like my "This party is live" status. It has been a proven fact that if I'm busy, you may as well file a missing persons report for me because this sister is MIA.

I think phones, mp3s, and social networking sites have taken away our ability to really interact with people. Its easy to be cool from behind your keyboard (unless you typw type wirg with alot a lot of erru erraa arrows errors, because no one thinks that's cool). 
So ask yourself:

• Could you make friends with someone sitting next to you on the bus/train?
• Could you go an hour without facebook, twitter, mypace, and your phone?
• What about a day?
• A week? 

I'm not saying technology is bad (because Lord knows I love it) but try not to let it consume your life or define who you are. So what if you can't get more than 22 followers on twitter (Me) does that mean you don't have an amazing personality? 

BTW: If you text in my car, you better prepare to tuck and roll.

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Life-Changing Quotes:

"Wherever you go, 

no matter what the weather, 

always bring your own sunshine."

So Remember: SPREAD THE LOVE

Episode 14: In Da Club/ Stupid School

If you having math problems I feel bad for you son

...I got 99 and the Trig. ain't one.

It Humpty Dumpty HUMP day. Yup, yup its Wednesday.

Reminder: Please check out my YOUTUBE CHANNEL.

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Its Story time...

So my best friend and I were talking about how we like to spend our free time. About 5 months ago I turned...dun dun DUNNNNN...21. No big deal. Now I'm am of age to go to a 21+ club, buy a drink and drink it. (Its a party, its a party, it's a PARTYYY) But I'm really not the clubbing type (I don't like short tight dresses), and I have yet to walk into a liquor store. Maybe it's because I'm not on my own yet (yeah i still live at home). 

Maybe about a month ago, I went to Providence Nightclub with my best friend. I had fun with all those guys asking me if they could eat me I'll leave that for another post. As I danced the night away and drowned my sorrows at the bottom of a cup filled with a Long Island Iced Tea, I thought about how much fun this is. The next day I was talking with my best friend about how much fun we had and she started what appeared to be an infinite list of clubs she wanted to go to. It was hard for me to get excited (which almost never happens). The thing is, my best friend was extremely sheltered when she was younger. I mean full on state prison lockdown (curfew, scheduled meals, monitored leisure time, etc). Now me on the other hand, I've been partying since I was like 15. My curfew at 16 was 1:30am, by 18 my curfew was nonexistent. So by 21, I'm bored, I'm tired, and I'm pooped. At least spending the night in, I don't have to worry about looking good (even though I always look good), I'm probably with someone (*wink wink*) and there might just be some type of sporting event on. Clubs only offer guys/girls you can't take home to your parents, expensive drinks, and no food. NO FOOD?!?! That's the first thing I check for.

I still enjoy a good drink and a two-step every once in a while but I'm so over that scene.

Don't even get me started on bars...

That was NEVER my wave.

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How many people think their school is stupid? 

I don't want to get kicked out of school for this so the school I attend shall remain nameless...

but ever since we switched over to a new database called CUNYFirst (more like CUNY last) everything has been on the fritz. I'm convinced that we all might be able to go to school this semester for free. And WHY AREN'T ALL MY GRADES POSTED YET! >_<

CUNY, step your cookies up, go get you a ladder. 

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I would like to introduce a new segment called 

My Friend's Status

I'm going to post random, anonymous status' from my twitter or facebook. 

Today we have:

• Music and writing, my therapy.
• Being hurt is one thing. Being spiteful is another. Intentional hurtful actions you don't come back from. :-\ you'll live you show me that.
• Falling in love with you is the second best thing in the world. Finding you is the first.
• I always get so close but never follow thru...mayb 1 day...
• IDK why i was walkin around wit a Bat Today.. i Guess I was Feelin the Need To hit some1 Wit it lol walkin home now, Hope i dont have to swing on no1 while im on my way

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Episode 13: Chooseday/ Toe Polish

Its Tuesday, That means Chooseday!

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Congratulations to the 2011 NBA Champions, 

The Dallas Mavericks! 

Well Done.

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I decided to dubb Tuesday, Chooseday. So every tuesday, I'm going to pose a situation and I need you guys to help me choose.

My Ex is a...>_<

There was this guy i used to talk to (not my boyfriend) and he was really cute (for a lightskin guy). He lives about 5-10 minutes away from me and works even closer. But let me give you some background.

The reason he and I (lets call him Mr. E) don't talk anymore dates back 2 christmas' ago. I was speding the night with some extended family of mine in brooklyn. (BROOKLYNNNN). He called me and asked if I would spend the rest of my Christmas with him. Now I've heard the saying 'bros before hoes' (and he def was a ho) but he told me that one BOTH of his parents passed away years before and all his roommates left him home alone, so (with my basic syndrome) I decided to see him. He told me he was on his way to pick me up (I wasn't a pigeon, I was young and without a car. I'm ballin now). A little later he calls me to tell me he got a flat tire BEFORE he hit the highway. So I said (like I thought any smart girl would say)

• "Ok just go back home with the little bit of air in your tire and I'll see you another day." 

Boy was that the right WRONG move. He FLIPPED OUT on me (You know how Puerto Ricans are). Told me he wanted me to tell him to fix it and come see me (-_- damn I didn't know I was holding like that).Needless to say, we haven't spoken since then. 

Moral of the story: Don't give your number to guys you meet in the train station. (-_- I was so young and naive)

But back to my question, I know he works at a barber shop (I'm not a stalker, I've been there before with him), and I want to show him how good i look (not conceited) without him. What would my excuse for going into a barber shop be?

So I need you guys to help me choose. Either:

• Give me a reason to go into a barber shop (lemme borrow your son real quick) or
• Should I just forget about him (I don't wanna date his old ass anyway)

So let me know. Leave a comment,

text me, send a letter in a bottle, 

tie a note to a bird or write it in the sky.

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One of my facebook friends has the status...

"Girl rule #75: if your toe nail polish is chipping, do not I repeat, do NOT wear any type of shoes that show off your toes. smh"

Come on ladies, I thought this was an unwritten rule...now its written. I know it's almost summertime and sometimes your feet get hot but a pedicure is $12 or some nailpolish remover costs $2. Lets get it together.

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Word of the Day:

Orison (n) - A prayer

ex: When I came back from the supermarket, I held up a can and asked my mother "Is this the brand of tuna you wanted orison thing else?"

I hope I brightened up your day

So as always...SPREAD THE LOVE

BTW: I would be nice of someone to buy me a box of lick-a-colors.

Please and Thank You.

Episode 12: Tattoos/ Math Hotline

I'm feeling sluggish...That only means one thing.

Its Monday >_<

Just a reminder: My CDotScandal Webseries officially premiered YESTERDAY so check out my YOUTUBE Channel and click subscribe.
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Whats really good with...Tattoos edition

I remember in high school, the cool boys always had that one tattoo (right on their arm...sexy). I thought it was cool (then again I thought bagged school lunch was cool) and a lot of yous guys thought they were cool too.  But I'm no longer in high school (I'm not old, I'm like wine...only gets better with age), and I see a LOT of people with a LOT of tattoos. We always try to scare them by saying

• When you get old you're going to be old and wrinkly with tattoos.
• You're never going to get a good job. Have you ever seen a CEO with a face tattoo? 

But now-a-days, its not scaring them anymore. Even I'm inked up. Because of people like Lil Wayne and Angelina Jolie (famous people) people no longer aspire for the CEO types of jobs. (Get rich or die trying)


Did you know: Body mutilations (tattoos and piercings) were used as a right of passage for boys and girls. As a boy got to a certain age, usually around puberty (yup, they have to worry about acne and this) certain tribes such as the Xhosa men would lay a boy under a tree and cut insertions into his skin and all over his body. Because most boys got infections or dies from blood loss, these rituals are rarely found today. And I'm sure we all know about the female circumcisions (I won't go into detail.)


Now people use body art to express themselves. I'm in no way to judge a tattoo and say:
"That one is STOOPID, but that one is HAWT."


But I can ask that you you make sure you get a tattoo for the right reasons.

Special Thanks: To Maria Juana and Samantha @Mz_RudeGyal
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On a serious note: 

All the future teachers out there, be careful with these kids. We always here stories of teachers hitting students or teachers having sex with /getting pregnant by students. Dress nice appropriately, and conduct yourselves appropriately.

This is a PSA brought to you by CDotScandal...now on YOUTUBE!

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Yuh nah gon mek me laff with Maths

Q: How can you tell that a mathematician is extroverted?
A: When talking to you, he looks at your shoes instead of at his own shoes.

• Math problems? Call 1-800-[(10x)(13i)²]-[sin(xy)/2.362x]

HAHAHAH. I hope it made you smile. ^_^

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Farewell until next time...

and as always SPREAD THE LOVE...

Peace, Cheese and Afro Grease

Episode 11: The Trust Equation

This is the day that the Lord has made. 

We will rejoice and be glad in it. 

HAPPY SUNDAY!

I'm a 100% believer in positiveness.

While doing some Saturday cleaning, my mom played a CD which had the song ♫My Heart Will Trust in You by Hillsong♫ on it. I've been hearing this song for years probably (since it was on cassette), but whenever you're going through different situations, old songs have new meanings (well good songs at least). Basically this song is saying; no matter what hell and hailstorm I'm going through, I'm going to trust you and trust in you. Hillsong is popular for being a contemporary gospel artist but I think their music can be meaningful to anyone.  


If you have a problem, the first person you tell should be the person you trust the most. When I say 'trust the most' I mean 

1. You trust their judgement (because they are judging), 
2. You trust their verdict (that they only want the best for you) and 
3. You trust that if you make more mistakes, they will still stick to your side and comfort you.

Trust (Verb): To believe in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of.
If you don't feel this way about the person you first run to, then you should really be asking yourself 'Why do I trust you?'. Not everyone deserves the same level of trust. 

I'm not saying I have horrible family or friends, but the first person I always run to is God. He know's my situation already (so I don't have to worry about explaining myself well or leaving out any details). And it doesn't matter if I feel like I'm walking next to Lucifer himself, I have complete trust in God that I'm going to get out of my situation (Chuckin' up the deuces to Satan). 
I'm not going to force you to trust God (1.because I can't and 2. because I can't) but I can recommend that you be careful with the people you choose to trust. 
You deserve nothing short of the best, so don't settle. This goes for family, friends and lovers.

• So just ponder on this idea for a bit.  

I really appreciate all the people God has sent to me though. A great family, extended family, brothers and sisters, and AMAZING friends.   

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Beauty Alert: 

I did my nails again. The brush in the pink really sucked that's why I couldn't paint all the way down to my cuticles but the design is funky. I feel like Amber Rose. I get all my designs from a couple of my friends on facebook, Diamond and Jessie.(Giving honor where honor is due) but I'm nowhere NEAR as good as they are. 
But on the bright side, I finally did the leopard thing (RAWR)^_^

*side note* I didn't realize I did the laker colors on my ring finger until after i was done. I'm extremely upset.*

Keeping it light today like the Sunday New York Times

So remember SPREAD THE LOVE. 

And give a HUG.